My own private Uppsala

[seal]

I have the jet lag from Hell.
NOW I know what the fools were talking about all those years, and I wish I didn't.
Every night I cannot sleep, every day I am a walking dead. When I sit I nod like an old lady, almost falling over - almost.
I have a hate/love relationship with my bed.
I cannot take baths, because I don't want to in that bathroom, eating is not an option. I exercise and exhaust myself during the day, still no good. I read and read my book, it is a HUGE book (more than 800 pages, and two more parts just as thick)... thinking about sex...is the kiss of death to sleep.
Overall, thinking about Boulder and where I want to live, compared to where I live...is not a good option.
So I didn't sleep at all this night. Just couldn't. And I have no internet until tuesday. So this is written at the McDonalds internet café. It opens 7 a.m. News are on with Bush speaking from the Republican convention.

Maybe killing myself at Mc Donalds would make a statement?

Comments

[northern]

*pets you*

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

*looks fondly at you from your computer*

[tommdroid.livejournal.com]

you are out of alignment. perhaps laying down on their counter and rolling off dropping on the floor with your left side first might help. and make some kind of a statement. I hope your routines, microsystems and subroutines gets back in balance a.s.a.p.

*hugs!!!*

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

heh...you know, I'm such an old roleplaying geek that the word alignment actually means other things to me...like you know..in the world of D&D my alignment would normally be chaotic good..but if I'm out of alignment that means I either have no alignment...or have another one...like lawful neutral or neutral evil...frightening thought!

[kejn.livejournal.com]

there, there... it will pass. after a week, give or take a few days. the jetlag will, anyway. the missing and yearning is another matter...

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

Tonight was my first night of proper sleep!
So I guess I got out of it easier than many...but yeah..the longing...

[jedispice.livejournal.com]

Welcome back. Hope to see you a nanosecond or two before you migrate again...

*hugs*

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

Be sure to grab C and come to dinner around 17.30 on sunday the 26th of september, in the Blenda collective on the first floor!

Also you will see me at the Lexx weekend!

[socratesph.livejournal.com]

Nice to have you back in town, dear. Hope to see you some... *hug*

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

Hey friend, when was your party again?
I'm having a fear that it's the next weekend when I'm in Malmö visiting my mom for her birthday...

Anyhow, as stated to Jediboi above Soc, be sure to grab K and come to dinner on the 26th of September!

[socratesph.livejournal.com]

Our housewarming is the 18th (two weeks from now, minus a day).

26th will work fine for us, we'll come!

[usuakari.livejournal.com]

Every night I cannot sleep, every day I am a walking dead. When I sit I nod like an old lady, almost falling over - almost.

Sounds like how I feel after a shift or three at Clown. ;( I absolutely hate insomnia. You get the maximum 10 points on my empathy rating for that one.

Overall, thinking about Boulder and where I want to live, compared to where I live...is not a good option.

Sweden is that bad, and Colarado that great? If it wasn't for your geek would you still feel that way? I'm impressed if you would, and America ought to be flattered. I'm only speaking from limited understanding in each case, but given the choice between the two I think I'd pick Sweden every time.

Both the geek and the internship sound like a powerful lure though. I think some of my friends (like alecto23 who's originally from the States) would sympathise with the torn feeling...

Maybe killing myself at Mc Donalds would make a statement?

You'd make Yukio Mishima and the odd Buddhist monk proud, but I think any statement that would make would be interpreted as more about you and less about Maccas. The news story would probably go along the lines of "A clear sign of desperation on the part of a Swedish citizen unable to gain employment with the world-famous company, which she so obviously idolised and adored, just like millions of other satisfied customers around the free world." :( (Hey, that's not bad. Maybe I should be working as a spin-doctor instead of as a paramedic...)

Sorry about the gloom, Seal. I hope that Uppsala feels like a happy and comfortable home again soon. For however long it is to be one...

[cxgeek.livejournal.com]

>Sweden is that bad, and Colorado is that great?

Sweden is fine, but familiar (for her); Colorado is truly remarkable by most any standard, and Boulder even moreso. (If I lived where my parents do - central Illinois - I'm not sure if love would have been enough...) My hope is that we get to spend plenty of time both places, though my Swedish will never match her English-language abilities.

[usuakari.livejournal.com]

Ho. Nice to 'meet' you. :)

Colorado is truly remarkable by most any standard, and Boulder even moreso.

I may get to see it one of these centuries, but for the moment I'll have to content myself with words and pictures. It looks pretty amazing, but from where I sit Sweden looks pretty damn remarkable too. Not that Australia is short on notable features itself...

(If I lived where my parents do - central Illinois - I'm not sure if love would have been enough...)

Lucky it's Boulder then. ;) Illinois will forever be the home of Jake and Elwood Blues for me...

And your Swedish is still likely to be orders of magnitude better than mine. I'm not sure I actually know any Swedish at all.

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

heh...yeah, you would make a great spin doctor obviously...and I would be in deep trouble indeed if I couldn't even find work at sodding McDonalds...which over here is ...like the last stop for the chronically stupid/lazy/degenerated, and they get hired.

I think night work as for instance paramedics is a very good example for screwing with the sleeping rhythm and gaining temporary insomnia, so you actually have my deepest sympathies. And you guys do an awesome job as well...

If I could have a strict choice between Sweden or the States I would without doubt choose Sweden. I am however very happy to have found love, and that that love lives in Colorado. Illinois I could have lived with...but parts of the South, and the attitude there...any conservative place actually...bleh..

Thanks mr Hatman!

[usuakari.livejournal.com]

and I would be in deep trouble indeed if I couldn't even find work at sodding McDonalds...which over here is ...like the last stop for the chronically stupid/lazy/degenerated, and they get hired.

Generally the same here as well. Although...

Q. What did the engineering graduate say to the Arts graduate?
A. Would you like fries with that?

With the implication that unemployed Arts graduates might be able to afford to eat at Maccas. :(

I think night work as for instance paramedics is a very good example for screwing with the sleeping rhythm and gaining temporary insomnia, so you actually have my deepest sympathies. And you guys do an awesome job as well...

I don't actually mind night shifts that much. I tend to suffer less from insomnia during the day when working nights, than I do the other way around.

And many ambos are slack bastards and actually get to sleep during their night shifts anyway. The ones who work at quieter branches may get lucky and sleep for anything up to eight hours. They're not that hard done by, in comparison to the guys and girls at the busier branches and sadly abused casino medics.

The flattery is very nice, and always welcome, but in reality it's not that bad a job. The deeds are heroic sometimes, but in between times there's a lot of very simple patients to care for and a lot of snoozing and watching cricket on the tellie. ;)

Illinois I could have lived with...but parts of the South, and the attitude there...any conservative place actually...bleh..

Hmmm. Oddly enough my inner red-neck could probably cope with the South. It would be a challenge at times, I'm sure, but I could do it.

[jlsjlsjls.livejournal.com]

Poor sweetie ... MEGAHUGS!!!! It really DOES go away after a bit ... I've had jetlag lots of times and I still have the will to live. ;-)

[sealwhiskers.livejournal.com]

thanks girl. ...I think I got easily off the hook actually, it took three dreadful nights, but now it seems I'm back on track again.

[jlsjlsjls.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear you've beaten the nasty lag! Here's hoping that humans someday achieve a cure! (y'know, a pill with the new time zone in it or something)