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I did my duty...(yes I did!)
Dec. 19th, 2002 11:51 pmSo..yesterday was TTT-day. I won't make comments on the film. That would take a whole essay in itself (maybe I'll write that some other time). *But* ..yesterday was actually the first time I saw my ex with his new gf. It was bizarre. I see plenty of my ex, we have steady social engagements together and he calls regularly, so that was not bizarre. And I have known of his new relationship before anyone else (since he told me first), and I don't want him back or anything (as I've said before), so all that was pretty normal...but..It sure feels a little inbred, I mean, this girl/woman whatever visited our home for years, sitting in our couch moping over her life. She was a friend of sorts I guess. And now she's unable to talk to me. Makes me wonder wtf she wanted all this time up until now. Ok..that is harsh, but still...
When they established their relationship a couple of weeks ago I heard from Soff that A had said that she didn't dare calling me, it was pretty obvious that she called a number of other ppl though, talking about the "problem". (my ex don't know this, and he'd be very surprised if he heard, as was I when I heard this, since there is no real "problem"). So I did the only thing I could think of, I called her and straightened things out. I said she had nothing to worry about and we're still friends and all that. She seemed satisfied with that. And yet, yesterday when we met, her behavior was slightly comical and yet depressing. Oh well, I guess we never really were friends. Nothing strange with that, you discover stuff like this from time to time, it comes with life in general.
Anyway, I sat in the darkness of the movie theater pondering this for a while, and then I felt strangely empowered. When the movie was over I came up to her and talked, forced myself a little on her, but in a nice way ::grins:: I am a little tired of the whole shit with people and their spineless, brainless or dickless behavior though. And my action now gave me no pleasure, except for the pleasure of being able to stand straight and not being a coward.
When they established their relationship a couple of weeks ago I heard from Soff that A had said that she didn't dare calling me, it was pretty obvious that she called a number of other ppl though, talking about the "problem". (my ex don't know this, and he'd be very surprised if he heard, as was I when I heard this, since there is no real "problem"). So I did the only thing I could think of, I called her and straightened things out. I said she had nothing to worry about and we're still friends and all that. She seemed satisfied with that. And yet, yesterday when we met, her behavior was slightly comical and yet depressing. Oh well, I guess we never really were friends. Nothing strange with that, you discover stuff like this from time to time, it comes with life in general.
Anyway, I sat in the darkness of the movie theater pondering this for a while, and then I felt strangely empowered. When the movie was over I came up to her and talked, forced myself a little on her, but in a nice way ::grins:: I am a little tired of the whole shit with people and their spineless, brainless or dickless behavior though. And my action now gave me no pleasure, except for the pleasure of being able to stand straight and not being a coward.
