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Tomorrow will be the day when I decide if I will travel down south to visit my father or not, depending on what the doctor says. He is stable though, and I've talked to him twice a day.
Today is one of those days when I feel I have no destiny.
No, I do not believe in "fate" as it's commonly viewed, but still, that poetic, idiotic phrase fits this day.
I should really not be surprised that the feeling of loneliness can enter when you are meeting people all the time. Yesterday there was a dinner with the board of the society. A really great group of people that I'm part of. This board will stay as it is for a while longer before the issue of successors will come up. And it feels good, we do a good job I think, and it's a good composition of ppl with good chemistry (this was not always the case before), yet still, in the middle of all this I just felt pure pain inside at some point, and thought of leaving it all, just go away from this whole place and scene. I have this shit inside that I don't know what to do with. I really don't want to give up though. I have many friends here, and things to do, to finish. Perhaps it was just how I felt the other day.
Had the worst night of sleep as well. The worst! Neck and shoulders are so stiff, I can not fully move my head from one side to the other, it almost makes me scream if I try. This makes me think if there are not tense situations in life that just are not made for sleeping, even if you manage to do it after a fashion...
Today is one of those days when I feel I have no destiny.
No, I do not believe in "fate" as it's commonly viewed, but still, that poetic, idiotic phrase fits this day.
I should really not be surprised that the feeling of loneliness can enter when you are meeting people all the time. Yesterday there was a dinner with the board of the society. A really great group of people that I'm part of. This board will stay as it is for a while longer before the issue of successors will come up. And it feels good, we do a good job I think, and it's a good composition of ppl with good chemistry (this was not always the case before), yet still, in the middle of all this I just felt pure pain inside at some point, and thought of leaving it all, just go away from this whole place and scene. I have this shit inside that I don't know what to do with. I really don't want to give up though. I have many friends here, and things to do, to finish. Perhaps it was just how I felt the other day.
Had the worst night of sleep as well. The worst! Neck and shoulders are so stiff, I can not fully move my head from one side to the other, it almost makes me scream if I try. This makes me think if there are not tense situations in life that just are not made for sleeping, even if you manage to do it after a fashion...
