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I should:
Attend at least parts of the World Science Fiction Convention in Denver, but I probably won't.
Attend and listen to Obama's speech on the Democratic Convention in Denver in a couple of weeks, that could still happen, if I get a seat.
Lots of historical happenings taking place in Denver, where I go to work every day, and I sort of feel as if I'm missing them, standing by the roadside watching the tide fly by.
That's how life feels a little nowadays. I'm waiting.
At the archives I'm working a lot at the research desk, watching in mild amazement how people swamp us and want me to find this or that engrossed bill or amendment, to listen to old and new legislative meetings in house and senate, on Dictaphone tapes that fit on old old machines, not any longer in production, falling apart on us. I tend these machines like creaky degenerating old labor horses, oil them, humor them and pray that they will service another lawyer or legislator, so that we can abide by the law and make these public records still available to the public.
Part of what amazes me with a political stance that's aimed to "starve the beast" (= to starve the public sector, to starve State, for y'all who aren't american or Republican/right wing-libertarian), part of what amazes me is that state employees in Colorado are by far the most careful, under payed, well educated and stressed employees I've observed so far, with Big Corp. employees on the other end of the extreme, spending, playing games on work time, having drinks and cutting hours.
And yet the public, your ma, sister and grandpa, when they visit a state agency they demand certain cervices, they scream and shout about their rights to be served these services swiftly on a platter because they PAY TAXES for them.
Let me explain: IF YOU VOTED FOR DOUG BRUCE'S TABOR BILL, you are NOT PAYING ANY GODDAMN TAXES for STATE SERVICES, you are agreeing to STARVE STATE, to CUT MONEY FOR SCHOOLS, COURTS AND PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION, etc etc etc.
You have to PAY FEES, yes, let me phrase this again: if you don't pay taxes you have to PAY FEES, because neither Doug Bruce nor George W Bush will pull the money out of their asses for the services you need.
Bureaucracy is beautiful, if you starve it, it becomes an ugly ugly and disorganized beast, like it is in Colorado.
I've had people crying here, because they don't know where to go, to find their records. How can a staff of seven (7!) people at the Archives of the whole of Colorado State, help them locate records we don't even have, when we're fully occupied up to our eyeballs with the records we do have.
And then we have the people screaming and crying at us for paying the goddamn fees, because the Colorado State Archives became partly cash-funded in the 90's (instead of tax funded).
WE DID NOT VOTE FOR THAT BILL!!! the right wing idiots did. It was that or closing down the Colorado State Archives.
I'll stop now. I should be used to this by now..but back home...the archives are shiny..the corridors sparkly, the records free from mold, and free from fees. People can access them whenever, like it was supposed to be.
A friend told me I'd have a job at her old agency back in Sweden if I came back. I nearly cried, I liked the place (it was where I did one of my internships).
Oh screw it. I'm not gonna go there.
In a month and a half I'll know if I have a job or not. It all comes down to if that bloke leaves his position or not.
Vulture waiting on a tree branch, who me?
I love archival science, I love history, I even love Colorado (but not republicans and Doug Bruce), but I'm so so tired right now. And money is thin, and yet all I do is work work work.
How come people think this country is big money and big cars? All it's been to me is tiny cars that break, and tiny money for lots of work.
Our car broke, it's gonna take a while for it to work, but at least it can be payed by the guarantee. Small blessings.
Oh, and I miss my friends. People who really get me without effort and who want to get me. I miss my Swedish blokes and bitchettes like whoa right now.
Attend at least parts of the World Science Fiction Convention in Denver, but I probably won't.
Attend and listen to Obama's speech on the Democratic Convention in Denver in a couple of weeks, that could still happen, if I get a seat.
Lots of historical happenings taking place in Denver, where I go to work every day, and I sort of feel as if I'm missing them, standing by the roadside watching the tide fly by.
That's how life feels a little nowadays. I'm waiting.
At the archives I'm working a lot at the research desk, watching in mild amazement how people swamp us and want me to find this or that engrossed bill or amendment, to listen to old and new legislative meetings in house and senate, on Dictaphone tapes that fit on old old machines, not any longer in production, falling apart on us. I tend these machines like creaky degenerating old labor horses, oil them, humor them and pray that they will service another lawyer or legislator, so that we can abide by the law and make these public records still available to the public.
Part of what amazes me with a political stance that's aimed to "starve the beast" (= to starve the public sector, to starve State, for y'all who aren't american or Republican/right wing-libertarian), part of what amazes me is that state employees in Colorado are by far the most careful, under payed, well educated and stressed employees I've observed so far, with Big Corp. employees on the other end of the extreme, spending, playing games on work time, having drinks and cutting hours.
And yet the public, your ma, sister and grandpa, when they visit a state agency they demand certain cervices, they scream and shout about their rights to be served these services swiftly on a platter because they PAY TAXES for them.
Let me explain: IF YOU VOTED FOR DOUG BRUCE'S TABOR BILL, you are NOT PAYING ANY GODDAMN TAXES for STATE SERVICES, you are agreeing to STARVE STATE, to CUT MONEY FOR SCHOOLS, COURTS AND PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION, etc etc etc.
You have to PAY FEES, yes, let me phrase this again: if you don't pay taxes you have to PAY FEES, because neither Doug Bruce nor George W Bush will pull the money out of their asses for the services you need.
Bureaucracy is beautiful, if you starve it, it becomes an ugly ugly and disorganized beast, like it is in Colorado.
I've had people crying here, because they don't know where to go, to find their records. How can a staff of seven (7!) people at the Archives of the whole of Colorado State, help them locate records we don't even have, when we're fully occupied up to our eyeballs with the records we do have.
And then we have the people screaming and crying at us for paying the goddamn fees, because the Colorado State Archives became partly cash-funded in the 90's (instead of tax funded).
WE DID NOT VOTE FOR THAT BILL!!! the right wing idiots did. It was that or closing down the Colorado State Archives.
I'll stop now. I should be used to this by now..but back home...the archives are shiny..the corridors sparkly, the records free from mold, and free from fees. People can access them whenever, like it was supposed to be.
A friend told me I'd have a job at her old agency back in Sweden if I came back. I nearly cried, I liked the place (it was where I did one of my internships).
Oh screw it. I'm not gonna go there.
In a month and a half I'll know if I have a job or not. It all comes down to if that bloke leaves his position or not.
Vulture waiting on a tree branch, who me?
I love archival science, I love history, I even love Colorado (but not republicans and Doug Bruce), but I'm so so tired right now. And money is thin, and yet all I do is work work work.
How come people think this country is big money and big cars? All it's been to me is tiny cars that break, and tiny money for lots of work.
Our car broke, it's gonna take a while for it to work, but at least it can be payed by the guarantee. Small blessings.
Oh, and I miss my friends. People who really get me without effort and who want to get me. I miss my Swedish blokes and bitchettes like whoa right now.
